What the life!

All we ever want in our life is stability but as soon as we get it, we get bore and then we need change. Life is a big circle of changes. When we are in school we want to go to college, when we reach college we want a job and when we finally land a job we crave for our school days again.

Human mind is a complex organ and a little confused too. Especially us girls , we want a relationship and then we want not, we will undergo various beauty treatments to look pretty but then want to be accepted the way we are, we will go crazy shopping for perfect dresses but are most comfortable in pajamas, we hate snobs and label everyone as bitches but deep inside we ourselves are one to the core, we will go to any extent to prove our point and satisfy our ego but would frown upon if anybody else does so.

Change is inevitable. Change is what makes us moving forward. Whenever we get stuck , our life starts to stagnate. It makes us emotionally handicapped. If we will take a look at our life we will realize how much we have changed since the last year. People who we thought will stay with us forever are no longer there, and whom we thought we will never talk to, are now the closest persons in our lives. There is hardly any time to stop by and ponder.  We all are growing up fast , growing old faster. But this does not makes us any more wiser or smarter. We keep on repeating the same mistakes again and again, keep on getting into relationships we are not suppose to, trusting those who have back stabbed us enough of times in the past, secretly hoping for things which are never going to happen, lending money to our friends and hoping that this time they might return it back
(which we all know never happens).

So, the best we could do is accept. It is more than often that we keep on denying things and then we are in constant denial of denying them. We have to accept our imperfections, our wrongdoings, our mistakes and most importantly the fate of life.

               

Dear 16 year old me

I know you probably do not want to hear this, having that rebellious streak as its the ‘in thing’ these days. Nonetheless, let me assure you your kindness will open many hearts for you rather than your tantrums.
I know its kinda hard to accept but yes you are pretty in your own way. Dont be hard on yourself, don’t deprecate your self worth by competing with others. Life is much more than just a pretty face.
Follow your passion, even if its something as lame as poem recitation. Don’t ever let anyone make you feel small about it.
Do not evaluate yourself on some bratty little hopelessly hopeless guy’s benchmark. Trust me, you are better off without him and his judgements. Sever ties which hurt you, social acceptance means nothing if it only brings inferiority.
You deserve unconditional love, absolute attention and devout care. You deserve to be appreciated and applaud. One day you will receive all of this and much more, just wait for the right guy.

Dancing With The Devil

Reckless, restless
High on desire.
Yes, I am dancing with the devil.

Dazed, Deranged
One step forward, two step backwards.
Yes, I am dancing with the devil.

Is this disaster, is this love?
Oh, what’s the difference really.
Yes, I am dancing with the devil.

Renegade you are, still hoping you stay
No care, as long as the music lasts.
Let me dance with the devil!